Tuesday, January 20, 2009

For Me, Really...

To do list:

  • Photo shoots with mom's camera
  • Painting of a tree with nails
  • Country sunset painting for Shana
  • Mom's special painting
  • Dad's special painting
  • Come up with painting ideas for Michelle, Noah, and Lex
  • Paint a portrait of Kitkat

Monday, January 12, 2009


One topic that stands in my mind is evolution. Evolution is a topic that is argued by many scientists and Christian believers. When I think of evolution, and my beliefs of it, I think of the human evolution sequence. The picture shows an ape in its bent-over stage, and it progressively gets upright, walking on two legs and human. Humans and apes are very similar. Their brains, their appendages, fingers and toes, and even their bones are similar to ours. The reason they are not identical, is because they are not fully evolved. The spine structure is not complete, therefore they walk hunched over and most of the time on all fours. Apes are very intelligent, and even today scientists are teaching them things by speaking to them, telling them to press the correct button or point out the correct number/color. Although some do not believe in evolution, because of the theory that God created all mankind and all animals in their uniqueness, the scientific evidence is very outstanding. It is hard for me to not believe in evolution, because there is so much historical evidence with multiple types of bones from different times, of these apes. They grew different and adapted to the world, just as it changed.

Writing Prompt: Words that hurt me…

Writing Prompt: Words that hurt me…

When someone throws a rock into shallow water, it splashes and causes a wave of ripples. This is what these words do when they are thrown at me. The insults and lies that pour out of their mouths fills me with sadness and hatred. I’m fat, stupid, selfish. I’m a bitch, a liar, a backstabber. I don’t think about others and I act like a child. When you tell me, I am angry, but then hurt. I feel betrayed and alone, I depress easily. I feel as if no one likes me, and I cannot be myself without making someone hate me. To be myself is to die alone, and to die alone is the worst kind of punishment that could ever be laid upon me. I never want to be alone, and this relishes in my personality. I try to please people any way I can, and still try to be myself. I do not like to smile much unless I am nervous, extremely happy, or laughing. I will smile if you do, but it is not genuine. It is not real, but polite. It is because of all of the timeless occasions I was teased and tormented as a child and young adult. Maybe I am being too sensitive. Although these accusations are thrown at me, some of them are true… You just have to know me before you should believe what others say or what you read.


Love this, Love that...

I recently saw an old couple (in their 70’s, I think) walking out of an ice cream store holding hands. It made my heart melt. I want to be deeply in love with a person when I am that old. I want to be able to look at my spouse and smile, still having those butterfly feelings in my stomach. Love seems to be so rare with me. Well, I fall in love too easily, but it’s not the same with other people. I wonder, is it lust? Possibly, but I cannot explain it fully–it’s confusing. I hope I find that special someone who will still whisper sweet nothings into my ear even after years of marriage. I want him to feel like he would never think of leaving me. It would be so great. That elderly couple had smiles in their aged faces, but they still saw the love that continued to burn in their hearts after all those years of marriage. That’s what I want.


Monday, January 5, 2009

Bucket List

Goals in life have to start some time... I have always wanted to have great adventures and visit wild destinations. I am here writing a list of things that I want to do before my lifetime ends.

1. Go white water rafting
2. Climb a Redwood tree in California
3. Rock climb in Canada
4. Go mountain climbing
5. Go island hopping
6. Sail the ocean to different countries
7. Shop in New York
8. Experience sheep hearding in Wyoming
9. Ride a horse on the beach until sunset
10. Learn how to Skii/Snowboard
11. Graduate College
12. Get married and have kids
13. Become successful at my job
14. Watch a movie being filmed
15. Meet a very famous actor/musician
16. Meet the president
17. Nap in a hammock between palm trees
18. Swim at the beach in Mexico
19. Visit a volcano
20. Learn how to play steel drums from a rasta man
21. Kiss a Llama
22. Go on a Safari
23. Skinny dip at a beach in Brazil
24. Visit Mayan, Inca, and Aztec ruins
25. View the pyramids of Egypt


26. Take a picture from the top of the Eiffel Tower
27. Tell the time by looking at Big Ben
28. See the Stone Henge
29. Stand next to an Eastern Island head
30. Visit a Zen Buddhist monastery
31. Play a few games in Las Vegas
32. Walk a mile on the Great Wall of China
33. Eat Sushi in Hong Kong
34. Be part of the audience at a Japanese game show
35. Be in the audience for the show MADtv
36. Drink wine in Rome
37. Kiss on a water taxi in Italy
38. Eat in Greece
39. Drink beer in Germany
40. Go to New Orleans during Mardi Gras
41. Go dogsledding in Alaska
42. Meet a kangaroo in Australia
43. View the palaces of Russia
44. Feed families in Ethiopia
45. Learn to surf in California

[more to come... this is all I could think of at the moment]